Nice Shower Cap
Well the damn Iraqi's seem bound and determined to start a civil war. They seem to have shifted gears slightly and are attacking each other when they are not busy attacking us. Today the sunni's blew up a Shitte holy site and of course then the shitte's had to attack the sunni holy sites and on and on. It is hard to be possitive when they keep doing this crap. I know that there are alot of people in this country who want peace but they seem to get drowned out by the extremists on all sides. My main hope was that the time I was away from Marissa and Grant could be justified by the possitive lasting impact we could have on generations of Iraqi's. My feelings about Bush, Rumsfeld, the justification of the war were not important to me anymore. I really did hope that we could make a difference in these peoples lives. I do not hold out any hope of that anymore. Sadly now all I hope to accomplish over here is to get as many soldiers,sailors, marines and airmen back to their loved ones safe and sound. I care nothing for the big picture anymore because to me the big picture has changed. Now the big picture is much more focused...accomplish my mission, look out for the soldier on my right and my left and get home safe to my family.
I wish I had some ray of hope to offer to you back home but I really dont. It is up to the Iraqi's to make this work, nobody else. Sorry to make the bulk of this post in such stark contrast to the fun lighter tone at the start but the blog flows from me as my thoughts do. I try my best to not filter my thoughts and to lay them out as they come so that you may be able to feel what i feel.
I also want you to know that while I may be a tad bit pessimistic about this endeavor, I am in good spirits. I can be that way because I focus on the day to day and enjoy the companionship of those I serve with. In the midst of this crappy place there is friendhip and laughter and sometimes even joy. So if I can have fun.....quit complaining and enjoy life to the fullest or i'll be ticked!